Inhale Good shit, Exhale Bullshit.

These last 365 days haven’t been the easiest, nor were they the greatest. But this has been the most challenging year I’ve had in some time. I’m happy to say that through all the Tears, and anger, The trials and tribulations, I’ve made it. I’m finally wholeheartedly the happiest I’ve been in a VERY long time, nothing can bring me down right now. I thank my Mom for continually being there for me, and my Best friends (Dedra, Tayler, Quincey, and Robert) for making me smile through all the tears. and my sisters for being assholes, and toughening me up. Which includes Nory and Glory, they’ve been there for me through it ALL. & Most importantly I want to Thank God for keeping me each and everyday, and for teaching me very valuable lessons, that I never thought I’d get through. 

Happy Birthday to me BEEEEEETCCHHHHHEESSzz! ;*

I’ve become this rude, bitter, angry person that I haven’t been in so long, and I hate it. I miss the old me, I miss not having to force a smile. I’m stressed, I’m angry, I’m bitter. What happened to the relaxed afternoons I spent reading because I enjoyed it, or when I’d write to rid myself of the horrid thoughts. I used to be so carefree, now I feel so cautious.  I have to get back to the old me, because I hate who I’ve become. 

• Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
• Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
• LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
• Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
• Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
• Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
• Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
• Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
• Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
• Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
• If you ever want to talk: My tumblr is always open.
• For some great phone sex: 267-206-8255

I want you to myself. and i’ve been yearning to tell you for like ever now. Though knowing you, you wouldn’t care. You’d see me as just another “thirsty” girl, who wants your attention. It’s more than that, I like you. A LOT. More than you know. & Now that you’ve walked out, you’ll probably never know. Can’t say I didn’t care. 

….Because if you don’t, no one will.